I'm sorry to say to the one person who commissioned me, but I cannot finish your commish. Also, sorry to those who watch me for art or models.
I've been experiencing some severe depressive episodes, but I'm not diagnosed with depression. Yesterday at work, I had this bad one, where I literally felt like not going to work on Sunday (today)....so I stayed home. I didn't feel like playing games, making models, drawing, watching videos, going to my counselor's appointment on Friday, nothing at all. I just wanted to lay in bed and sleep, all day, not get up to do absolutely anything. Today, I was sitting at my computer, watching a YouTube video, and I felt a horrible pit in my stomach that refused to be filled in by anything. I felt absolutely empty, and it kind of scared me. It's been getting so much worse, yesterday did concern me.
I've never reached a point where I don't want to do anything but lay in bed and sleep all day. I feel an absolutely dreadful feeling about the next upcoming month as well, even if in the long run these changes would be for the better. I don't know what to do, honestly.
I'm sorry. Before this little episode on Saturday I did manage to build two models of Daisy, so I'll be uploading them soon, hopefully some of you out there still pay attention to me and aren't just watching me for nothing (I'd feel bad for wasting your time x.x)
Mom said maybe if I get a new job that would help me a lot, and maybe it would. 9 and a half hours at a place like McDonalds could kill you .-.